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Where to start?

I haven't been doing terribly. I haven't been working at losing either. Instead, I've kind of been hanging out in this limbo phase where I'm maintaining and getting no where. The desire is there but I haven't been pushing myself. My plan was to wake up at 615 or 630 every morning before work and then work out after work for about an hour or so. That obviously hasn't been happening.

BUT!

My boss called me into her office to tell me that she was concerned about me because I was constantly being late for work and she hoped that everything was alright. This translates to 'AUDEN. Get yourself to work ON TIME or else we're going to FIRE your FAT ASS and never look back."

So this will give me motivation to wake up at 615 and start working out. Doing this actually helps me to get to work on time. Seriously, I've been getting up five til whenever I'm supposed to get to work and I've consistently been late to work for the past month. I'm surprised that it took her this long to grill me about it.

I've been in a i-dont-care mood and I'm ready to get out of it. Thanks boss.

So here's the plan...
Breakfast - up to 100 calories (I just bought BOXES of Vitatops (100 cals). They're nutritious and delicious!)
Lunch - up to 200 calories (Mostly yogurt, fruit, maybe half a sandwich)
Dinner - Up to 300 calories (This is where I'll try to have my protein and veggies.)

But seriously, food is interchangeable as long as it fits into the calorie range. If I actually start working out properly, maybe I'll be able to up my intake but we'll see. I'll let Saturday or Sunday be a free day (up to 1000 calories).

Hmm... that's it. Oh! I started school yesterday! So my stress level is pretty much UP. YES!

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I'm back!... since Sunday. And 5 pounds lighter.

I really expect for me to gain again because being at home is one giant temptation balled up into one house. Interestingly, we don't have sweets in the house. We have lots of fruit and salty things and I find myself gorging on them. We also have lots of sweet shops around here. I've already caved and went to one. I did find that I wasn't enjoying myself though.

The only good thing from all of this is that I find that my chocolate obsession has literally vanished.

So things that I need to remember: 1) I have no money. I need to save. No more random food purchases, 2) I need to work out since I can't walk 2 hours a day anymore (which is probably the only reason I lost any weight these last two weeks), 3) I'm a bride's maid in September. Motivation!

My mom's birthday is this Saturday too. My plan is to eat around 500 cals a day until then. Saturday and maybe Sunday will be my free day. I hope not though. I really want to keep restricting on Sunday. However, the boyfriend will be in town that day. I don't think he'll allow me to not eat.

Hmm... That's it. Back to work.