07202010

Yesterday and today haven't been that great but I'm pleased to say that I haven't felt the urge to purge. My friend, I love her, but she loves to eat (although she's in pretty terrific shape). I ate half an ice cream cone and a whole chicken sandwich + fries. Before that, the day was good but it's whatever. I ate because it made my friend happy. She's been very unhappy with my eating habits but I love her enough to eat for her. I only get to see her once every year or so.

Tomorrow I'm heading towards Illinois and I thought that I'd be able to study and eat yogurt in peace but my friend has told one of her friends that I'm coming to town. She wants to get dinner with me. Like, every day.

I'm going to refuse and say that I'm busy with school. Which is true because it's a library school boot camp. I'm excited to be to busy to eat. Lots of walking as well.

The truth is that I do want to eat though. I worry about what will happen if I ever reach my goal (which, at the rate I'm going is... hmm..). I don't want to eat nothing and then gain 10 or so or more back because I'm eating again. I want to eat healthier but at the moment, I can care enough to wonder too much about it. I'm too busy.

I'm going to go browse around and read everyone's posts now.

:)